Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Is this enough

Hi,

Even though i strongly believe in Karma and have faith in god, sometimes i too start to question- why, what , when?

Over a last couple of months, once in a while, these questions daunt me and make me grab my wallet and go shopping. Question of why do i feel so unsatisfied even though i have an amazing family, a good job and lots of friends; what is that one thing  ( or more) that is missing to make me feel complete ; when will this void be filled.

People keep telling me that this void is an indication that i should get married, but i know that that;s the last thing i want, or is it? Why is it so important for a girl to get married to feel complete? And from i have observed and experienced, this thought is not imposed on women, but women tend to feel secure only when they have a man their lives; the same man who hurts her over and over again at multiple stages in life, in different ways, different forms.

Women today is going places, working, thinking like a man already. Infact, women are more successful managers as compared to their male counterparts. They are educated, and self sufficient. So am I. I can afford Giordano, Armani and Apple now.. i have them all..  I am intelligent and i can do wonders with numbers and analytics. I am honest, loyal confident and very romantic about eveything in life. Then why do i have this constant need of getting approved by a man.

Is it true, no matter how much strong a woman be, she does need a man to hug her and assure her that she is doing a good job.. Is having being able to shop till you drop enough, or a woman needs a man to hold her hand, when she is about to trip on the escalator..

Makes me wonder.... Aargh need a chocolate now!

Good night

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Faith

Hi,

Been long since i visited you. A lot has changed since then, i finished my studies, started working.. basically i am all grown up now, or so to say. i know i should have come to you more often, but trust me, i had never forgotten you.

Today is Holi, the colorful holiday of North India, where people play all kinds of pranks with colors, water and sometimes both. While coming back from office, i saw so many people covered in pink and blue. i was a little extra cautious on the roads too, to save myself from getting hit by a water balloon. To top it all, being a long weekend, this time with Good Friday and Easter, everyone is planning get-aways, or getting away from financial year ending hussle-bussle.

All these events  reminded me of how much has changed since the last Holi, in FY12. Those days of my life were the most traumatic days of my entire life. Not only was I 9 months old in my first job, trying to get a hold of business, i was surrounded by some devils ( read bosses) who were sucking every ounce of blood from my body.. And Holi was the day, when i broke down completely, because i was tired of working 18 hours a day and getting politically played at by my own bosses. just the thought of going to office would make me sick. A year has passed since those days, but this incident and many more incidents in my first year of working, left a deep and a lasting impact on my personality. But, if i look at the bigger picture, everything did balance-out for good.

I am an ardent believer of Karma, and over the last 2 years working as a professional my belief in this way of living has grown even stronger. infact, if we all look at the bigger picture including petty politics, and ruthless competition, everything that happens in our life, happens for a good reason.

Good incidents happen to bring happiness and the turbulent ones happen to make us learn and improve, while you are in the pursuit of happiness. All we need to have is FAITH that in the longer run, everything will balance out. You will not get anything more than what you need, and before you need it.

So, do your duties righteously, tell your family and friends that you love them, and have immense faith, in God, more so in YOURSELF.