In the evening today, i went to play on the jungle gym , right behing the place i live. I was the only one there at that time.. Everybody was probably busy in their own work or on their vacation, some package tour, perhaps. I was on the swing, a lot of thoughts bubbling in my mind. Well, my mind is never at rest. Either its busy making some silly/goofy jokes, wondering, or busy making strategies ( sometimes calculating). So, where was I, yeah, while i was on the swing, when the warm wind was blowing my hair , I was just looking around, at the houses near by, at the road, at the green grass. Everything was quite. No movements, apart from a few birds jumping roof to roof, Beautiful they were.. :-) I saw 2 "2 for joys" on one of the roof, they were kissing, making love, making the most out of the privacy they had at that time . The grass was pure green, soft, wet. Sprinklers were on, throwing water. Water drops along with the light from the setting sun made 3 most beautiful colors, blue, yellow, red. It was like a tiny rainbow standing there to say hello. Occasionaly, i could see huge SUVs on the black clean road, or some kids on their bikes, or an old man with his pet dog on the foot path. In that beautiful silence, my mind started speaking to me.
Everytime, i think of my future, i always see myself living in a beautiful bunglow at the countryside. Advanced technicaly, but simple, like a 9 year old child, innocent, free from any tension. Where there is a big lawn at the front and the back of every house. Where children come out in the evening on their bikes or skates, shout with joy, the screams of happyness that seem like a music to the ears. Where the big guys come out and play their favourite sports and girls as talkative as they are , talk, smile, look beautiful. Where working dads and mom come home on time, and sit for a cup of tea in their lawns, talk to their partners about their day, watch their child playing, growing up. I was wondering, if this dream of mine will ever come true...
When everybody i know is busy preparing for the entrances, or busy doing their training or scoring 1380 in GRE, i was on the jungle gym, swinging, and "day dreaming", this was the next thought that came up. But then i promised to myself, that after going back, I wld study and prepare myself to face the entrances, that i had only a few more days, so i would live them to the fullest, enjoy every minute of them, without thinking of anyone, especially those scoring 99 in their mock cats. :P.
And then i was thinking of my freinds. How i wishd they could see this jungle gym and play with me, laugh with me. I was trying to figure out what they could be doing then. "Sakshi must be taking some rest, after aimcat and a long drilling session of cat classes. Geetika must be trying her hands out on guitar, Shipra must be enjoying with family, Shambhavi must be counting days now, Yuvraj must be on his bike, roaming around on the streets, and Veni and Nilay must be invisible on gtalk, debating about whether to go " hardware or software" this time :P. lol " Then i thought i didn't log my self out of gtalk, Angad must have pinged, and must have gone mad since he got no reply ;P. And then it came to me, if all of them were here, how Nilay and Veni would have made faces, cracked silly jokes, made fun of me. And then i thought, i would blog today about this.
Then, from between the 2 houses came a maid, and behind her was the thing she had to take care of. A small child. He din kno my language, and seemed too young to go to school and learn english. He was on a tiny tricycle, red and yellow in color, a flag hoisted on one of its handle, that said "No.1". When he saw me, he smiled, i thought must be wondering " Such tall girl on children's jungle gym. funny!", and yeah all that in his own "gaga gu gu gi gi". Anyways, he climbed on the slide, went up and down a couple of times. And left me wondering some more. How these kids no matter what language they speak, no matter what parents they belong, are same, think the same "gaga guu guu", call water "mumm mumm". And then when they grow up, they learn to speak, to use words like "fck" in every sentence they say, to disrespect their mum or dad or both so that they could go and hang out some more. How these angels, slowly and gradualy, turn into demons. After a while, while i still was on the swing, he left on tricycle, again, i was alone, in the middle of the green grass, facing the setting sun, watching the birds now flying back to their nests.
I again started thinking, now, of something else. I thought its been long since anyone treated me like a lady, since i felt like a lady. I was thinking of romance. I was thinking of someone, who would send me cute msgs every morning, who would email me simple and short msgs, ending with a small heart, who would sing a song, who would tell me that he loved my smile or probably do anything very special to make me feel special.. Make me feel beautiful.............. I closed my eyes and started feeling someone looking at me with eyes oh so deep and filled with love, care, promising me to take care of me, love me forever.................
I was on the swing, wind, now cool and soothing, was blowing my hair, touching my face. Now the sprinklers were off, and even the sun was replaced by the silvery moon.. a few stars scattered here n there.. i thought what algorithm god must be using to save these stars, so many in numbers, so scattered.. Grass that was green in the sun, turned grayish. It was telling me to go back.. I stopped the swing. My legs were aching a bit, i was on the swing for a long time... i stood up, and started walking back.. to the reality........
